This may not seem like the best sort of thing to start publishing with, but at this point in time I feel that something needs to be let out. As I sit here in this lab. room at 1.20am, my depressed self delving deeper and deeper into a depressive state. I at this moment know how people who commit suicide feel. Don’t worry, I would never do anything as stupid as that, but it still hits me hard. It seems to be an accumulation of issues over the past few weeks that has finally reared its ugly head. The sort of things any student worries about – money, family, love, workload. I have spent the last TWO HOURS simply walking about campus, talking to no-one, listening to nothing. Tiredness is kicking in but I could care less at the moment. I seem to be in one of those moods where people believe that they are near-worthless. It really is a horrible feeling, but there is an inherent beauty in the tranquillity of the night, where nothing except small animals stir and there isn’t a care in the world.
When Glitch sees this he will maybe shout at me, but again at this moment I have no other outlet for my growing frustrations. When you read this glitch (which you will), know only that my state of mind is comparable only to a large black cloud, which doesn’t seem to lift, raining down on me head.
Sorry Glitch if this is bad in any way, but really there is no other outlet at the mo, and all i can say to others is try not to let things get on top of you, otherwise this happens. It can be good at times though, and rest assured that i will post a "normal" publication when i begin to feel better.
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